爱情啊, 原来是个, 精心设计的荒!

曾经有很多人对我说:“不要把爱情看得太重!” 我觉得他们不怎么把爱情当做一回儿事。 这些对我说这番话的人往往曾经都谈过恋爱, 曾经深爱着别人, 曾经都也都被人爱过。 他们拿得起, 放得下, 一旦缘尽了, 爱淡了, 他们说走就走, 潇洒地离开对方。

okie i shall continue the rest with english because i cant be bothered to type in hanyupingyin le. what i meant was to say that some people just take love easily because they seldom have to give something in return. some people in their whole life is constantly being “loved” by someone (this love can mean crush, secretly in love with, etc), becuase of looks, interlligence etc etc. Of course your life is blissful, of course you can take it easily, of course you can give up easily.

被爱是幸福, 爱人是痛苦!to be loved is a bliss, to love someone is painful. to love someone who doesnt even care about you is even more painful. have you ever loved a person who doesnt even cared about you? if not, you probably is in bliss. you do not understand how people feel when they are secretly in love with someone. you were never rejected by someone before. you do not understand the pain of loving people who does not even bother what you do. of course you can take it easily.

i am constantly in pain (not that i loved a lot of people, only 1! haha), but ended up being even more hurt. it is difficult not to think, it is difficult not to love. You are beautiful!

even as i complain how much pain i am suffering, for you, i feel it is worth it..

Don’t ask me who i love, coz i wont tell you.!

a very long post (one week worth of words)

actualli i dont feel like blogging, so this entry might be boring to most of you. i just want to remeber what i did over the past week

these statements, “i am tired!”, “i am dying!” and “WHEN WILL IT ALL END!” are very common in SMU’s students’ MSN nick, especially this period. even as though we are students, we lead a life that is very similar to a employer in the working world (not that boring though). by that, i dont mean that students in the other Universities are very free. i think it is just how the university structures the work load in their semesters itself. i am a lazy procrastinator. being a procrastinator is bad enough, imagine yourself being a lazy procrastinator. lazy to even think what not to do. this means that i have tons of work to be completed. they never seem to end, journals, summaries etc etc accumulate everyday. i finish one, 2 more are due. ARGH…..thats why i am so desperate until i begin to finish summaries in 5 minutes. Crap ( 1 summary i think is 4% of my grade, so if i crap 5 summaries, 20% of my grades gone)

the past weekend was the SMU openhouse, located at our very own administration block. i was on duty that day, trying to “con” people to come into SMU. people always ask me, “so whats so different about you all?”, constantly trying to cheat me into saying negative things of other Universities. maybe they are spies sent to SMU by the other unversities. anyway, i always think that NUS and NTU are very good school, just that we have our differences in our teaching methods. they are established and had already made a name for themselves. so dont campare NTU, NUS with SMU. coz they are the best! (to NTU, please stop advertising outside our school bus-stop, kinda give people the impression that you are desperate for students)

the open house was a good event, attracting more than 5000 potential students to our campus. even as much as i would love my school and hope that more people apply to SMU, i always tell people, “at one point of SMU life, you will regret that you applied to SMU.” i am not joking! the amount of work you have to endure here is no joke. some people can take it, some people cannot. CMC CMC = can means can, cannot means cannot! okie enough about SMU.coz i think people who reads my blog are all smu students.

have you ever gone prawning before? as in fishing prawning. prawning is damn fun! you get a rod, put a bait on the hook on top of the rod, swing the bait (of course on a fishing line) then swing into the pond and wait, wait and wait. if you heng, maybe 10 seconds you will get a prawn biting your bait, if not, good luck to u. Me and 2 frens, namely Gerri and Keng went to the prawning centre in Pasir RIs to prawn. prawning requires SKILL! like me no skill like that, i waited like one hour for my first prawn, it is a test of your patience. Keng and Gerri was better, they like experts like that. i think Keng Keng prawned before, and Gerri fished before, so they know the fundamentals of catching underwater food. even if you catch already, it is not the end of the story. you still need to put the prawn into the net. imagine the prawn on the hook, then the prawn has claws (hmm, does prawns have claws?) then when u want to remove the prawn from the hook, it will try and KIAP you.. painful process. well no pain where got experience gained? so Keng Keng tell me to try everytime to remove the prawn from the fishing hook. the best thing is that the few uncles beside me, they are pros, they catch prawns like no ones’ business. ANYWAY, for 4 hours with 2 rods, it costs us $86, and we caught like 14 prawns. so each prawn around $4. damn expensive.

I shall try and write the following with grammar:

I think that everyone should try and maintain a diary of their own. You can either write your memories in a book or write a blog. Writing in a blog is a very good way to express your feelings and to record down what happened and what you think. Being able to express yourself may be beneficial because you would not feel that no one is listening to you and no one cares for you. (assuming that people read your blog) It is a way to communicate to others and to let people understand what is going through you. If you are stressed, communicate your thoughts to the world, let them talk to you, so that you can feel better. There is no point in keeping everything to yourself. At the same time, you would be able to retain memories that you may one day forget. Wrte a blog now! 

useless me

i want to let go, but i cant bear to let go. i really really cant bear to let go.

i sat outside the accountacy block staring at the traffic.

i thought i was happy today. it has been a few weeks since we last met. i was so happy that i met you today. the sight of you brighten up my day. but, we parted very soon. i wanted to talk to you more to find out how have you been. but that never happened. i kept on looking at the small window on the door, thinking you might end class earlier, so that i can catch a glance of you again when you walk by. but that never happened. i wanted to call you so that i might have a chance to go home with you together. but that never happened again. Useless me

the next moment i saw you, you went dinner with your friend. it was coincidental that i saw you walked beside him to dinner. i wanted to call out for you, but that never happened. i could only look at your backview from a distance, hoping you wouldn’t see me, looking at you walk away, futher and further. useless me.

i stared at the cars passing by.

ford

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